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How was your Valentine’s Day? Ours was a bit, uh, weepy… which considering the lack of a post yesterday, probably doesn’t surprise you.

The boy was frustrated. His new machine is requiring more from him than he expected. At one point in the day, I could hear him whispering to himself, “I am a smart boy and I am intuitive.” Like his mother, he doesn’t like to feel undone by an inanimate object. Hours and hours and 5 needles later he threw up his hands and admitted that maybe, just maybe, being intuitive wasn’t going to do the trick. As difficult as it is to witness, this bumping into something he can’t immediately understand is very good for him. He’s learning skills he wouldn’t otherwise learn if everything was easy. But, I get his frustration. He had plans for Valentine’s and the learning curve just wasn’t going to permit those plans to come to fruition. Not this year anyhow.

I was frustrated too. I woke up grumpy and not feeling all that lovable. Valentine’s day was really a continuation of a difficult week. Ever had one of those weeks? Where it all just won’t go your way, no matter how you try? Every photograph blurry, every sentence muddled. Saturday morning I surrendered to a mild cold and I’ve been feeling “off” all week. I think I’ve been pushing too hard while still feeling “under” and the end result is a sleep deprived Wende. Sleep deprived Wende isn’t so much fun. In fact, she’s downright weepy. And weep I did, on several occasions yesterday. No real reason, just frustrated.

Poor IZ kept making valiant attempts to save the day. But even the best burger in town** for dinner or clandestine coffees out or hand-rendered cards couldn’t keep me from being weepy by the end of the day. I went to bed feeling very much like a Valentine’s failure. “Here’s your chocolate. I suck!” Foisting a box of chocolate on him. No, seriously, I just wasn’t that lovable yesterday—a walking, talking Rilo Kiley lyric, I was. Bad news. That was me on Valentine’s day.

The day was just wrong, wrong, wrong. Sometimes, the only remedy for all that ails you is a good night’s sleep. Especially if you’re sleep deprived.

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Not that any of you ever doubted it, but IZ is a keeper. Like his son and his wife, he doesn’t like to be undone by anything either. So, he declared today a Valentine’s Do-Over. I woke up to a lovely plate of fritatta and fruit plus a hand pulled mocha. I’ll spare you the coffee shot; but the food was too glorious not to photograph, even in my just waking state.

I woke up to a sun-shiny boy. Having made friends with his manual, he was intently working. No broken needles in sight. No chanting to himself. Just sweetness and light. Like yesterday hadn’t happened at all.

Boy Wonder: Mom, I’m really sorry about yesterday. Do you want a piece of my chocolate?

IZ: Happy Valentine’s Day, Sweetie. I do love you.

And me? I’m feeling a more lovable by the minute. These boys are amazing and I adore them more than I will ever have words to express. Chocolate and flowers and gifts aside, their determination to make things right speaks volumes. Valentine’s was never really about extravagance in the first place—I’ll take their well meaning determination, any day. And maybe just one piece of chocolate.

Sometimes, the remedy for all that ails you is a Do-Over.

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**And for the record, the best burger in town can be had at my house. Hands down.