The post below is probably not my best moment. I must admit that yesterday found me in a real dither! I’m still down, but not out as I thought. I’ll cut to the chase and say this: I am at the mercy of other people on several projects in my life (not just Thrifty Goodness) and that’s unsettling when progress isn’t being made! No amount of cajoling makes for movement in these cases because the Universe moves at her own speed, darn it! I have found the whole waiting process taxing on my creativity. I’ve embodied it, really. For every step backwards I’ve endured with things outside my control, I’ve personally taken leaps backwards on things within my control. I can’t bring myself to start anything! I thought if I just suspended all writing, that maybe I could focus on the things in front of me. Um, that wasn’t a good idea. And it lasted, what, 24 hours? Yeah, I have issues!
Ultimately, this is a simple case of writer’s block—only it involves scissors. And, what I know from churning out my fair share of written work is that you have to keep moving. Keep writing, anything! Allowing yourself to be swallowed by the expanse of white that is immobility is a death trap. It stands to reason the same can be said for my “failure to commit.” Right?
Some things have changed overnight. Again, the Universe moves at her own pace. For starters, some of my vendors have actually made some progress. In fact, I was handed the keys to the new website just this morning—with a heartfelt apology for the delay. Of course, that was after we, er I, was a complete Drama Queen yesterday. Much drama. Oh so much drama. Waste of mascara kind of drama! I’m gifted on this front. I’d like to believe, or I’m choosing to believe (um, IZ!!!) that my theatrics were not the reason for this sudden change in fate, but simply a case of correlation not equating cause and effect.
IZ pointed out that I’ve been blogging for 5 years at the end of this month. It would be a shame to quit so close to such an anniversary. However, the launch of the new website is going to take a great deal of my time as I load all this inventory. So, while I’m not stepping completely away, I won’t be posting my usual 5-6 days a week during April. Yeah, I know, make up my mind already!
As kids, our mama used to holler at us, “Either come in, or go out! But stop this infernal back and forth. Make up your minds already!” Some things never change—I always was indecisive. However, I think I’ll stay in for awhile and just crack the window if that’s ok with all of you.
Alright, so you lost me about 2 paragraphs into what you were talking about. I think you were trying to say that you can’t write on a block with scissors. Is that what you were trying to say? Because if it was, I totally agree with you. Are you running for anything political because I’d vote for you based solely on your scissors and block campaign. You rock!
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*snicker*… you worry me… but, um, OK!รย You rock, too. I hope. Who are you?? And, NOBODY start laughing if it turns out I’m responding to SPAM.รย I mean it, MONICA. ๐ ~W
To SEO Gangsta – WTF? Anyway – for any part I played (quite a bit) to reasons calling for drama – mea culpa x infinity. Glad you aren’t out for the final count! And no, correlation does not equate cause and effect but damn, it sure *seems* that way sometimes, doesn’t it?
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It’s all good! ~W
So glad you’re back. I missed you. I worried about you. I wept for you. (okay, another drama queen on your hands!) I swear to you, cupcakes will make it all better. (and if you DID respond to spam ~and believe me, this will be discussed at length on Friday night~ you just may see wine squirt outta my nose!!
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Thank you!รย And imagine, it wasn’t spam but Seth Green! ๐ ~W
Whew! I checked back JUST IN CASE and I’m glad you didn’t give up on entertaining us! ๐ Hey, we all have those moments when we get so overwhelmed, we need to climb into a cave and just chill for a while. Oh, and cry! That always makes us feel better. and venting…..:) Cut back a little, we don’t mind. We just don’t want you to stop, because we’d miss you way too much! ๐ Big, giant, snowy hugs chicklet! ๐
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Oh, thank you so much for your encouragement!รย You’ll probably get lots of picture posts from me for awhile.รย ๐ ~W
Oh well…I know the mascara thing, I’ve been in that state a lot too lately. You know Pluto just went retrograde, making things seem like a HUGE deal (which is an astrological way of saying you may be making a larger emotional deal out of things than needs to be…you know, if you believe in astrology…I know that I’m having a hard time holding onto the actual reality of life) I am so glad you’re not going to up and quit. I was talking to my pal Dina yesterday about it, and we both paused to be sad because we’d just really found you, and aren’t quite ready to let you go…welcome back.
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Thank you! And, at this point, I wouldn’t rule out the pull of Pluto! Oh, do you read Free Will Astrology? OMG… Rob Brezny rocks my world. ๐ ~W
I’m so glad you aren’t writing any farewell pieces anytime soon. I made a deal with myself earlier this week that I wasn’t allowed to read your blog until I was satisfactorily caught up with school…one of those incentive mind games I play with myself…. so I deemed myself ‘caught up’, and treated myself with a trip over here. Needless to say, I would have cried if I had “treated” myself to your farewell blog…anyways, I hope things settle down enough to get the perspective you need ๐
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I hope this comment means you’re caught up with your schoolwork?รย Except, that’s never really the case in graduate school, eh?รย Email me should you need to vent! ~W
I think it’s in the air! I myself feel a bit overwhelmed with all that is going on and feel uninspired to blogs. But, I know it will soon pass. I’m glad it did for you! I’d miss you! I hope this weekend + month brings you some peace + some resolution.
Hoppy Easter ๐
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It is in the air! Hang in there, we’ll get there, eh? ~W
I’m glad you’re back! We’ll still be here, thanks to Stalklines (ooops, Bloglines)… we’re waiting in the wings to recieve our porridge of your words, thoughts, photos and inspirations. You fill our bowls wether it’s once a week or 6 times a week.
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Stalklines… *snort*.รย For a moment there, I thought you were going to finish up, “Please sir, can I have some more?” ๐ Whew, close call. ~W
PS… I’ll be squiritng wine out of my nose with Paula. Just saying. :p
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Heh… sight to behold! ~W
A rap:
She signs her comment ‘W’ and thinks I’m spam
If a spamma leaves the shizzest comment, then spam I am
What kind of spam machine leaves comments, maybe a borg
But they prolly ain’t no Star Trek fans on Evidently.org
Peace…
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So, Babette… this rhyming thing is your department.รย I hope you have a response for my new reader, because I’m speechless.รย ~W
Ah Wende, you’re so “dlamatic” as Puck would say. ๐
I’m glad you are feeling a bit more with it today. Don’t underestimate the havoc this time of year plays on one’s pysche. With more sun and warmer temps, we feel like all should be well, but we know that cold and snow could arrive at any minute because Nature is a bitchy tease. Therefore, early Spring = misery.
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Indeed!รย I adore your Puck, btw. ๐ ~W
SEO Gangsta – there are indeed ST fans here… and there’s other kinds of spam out there. For example – the kind where people post irrelevant dribble on other people’s blogs just so they can have enough sites pointing back to their own list of irrelevant dribble… but I digress…
Wait, I am getting distracted by the comments. I am a ST fan–but not a gangsta one. Every night I try to inject a bit of self-induced drama into my life, mainly because I want to CONTROL my people and environment more than I actually am able to. Is that so wrong? *whines*
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I’m with you!รย I don’t see why I’m not allowed to control anything! Of course, that I nearly burn down houses when I use the stove is a good reason to keep me from cooking, but other than that, I don’t see the issue! ~W
Yo, Margie: “not a gangsta one” – you ought to try it…
IZ: Why you gotta hate?
SEO Gangsta – I’m not a “playa hatah” – blogging by proxy is fun, isn’t it? Anyway, yours is a singular wit… welcome.
As for Evidently, I’m just glad it is back again…
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You should know something about blogging by proxy. ๐ ~W
A follow-up rap:
IZ tells me that she ain’t no hatah,
But dribble is for basketball, I’ll play ya latah,
But fo now I’m bustin’ rhymes, honin’ my moxy,
Workin’ ’round legit IP’s, bloggin’ by proxy…
Peace…